Chapter 0
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Chapter 0
It's all a lie. I see no light. It's a deception.
If God really does exist, why am I going through this?
My life has no meaning.
So why didn't I end it and get it over with?
I had more than enough chances to.
It's easy to guess why I didn't.
I was afraid of dying.
If I died, everything would disappear. It would become nothing.
That's why he told me to believe in God.
Because we wouldn't have to be afraid as long as we believed that we were going to see God when we died.
But those are just pretty words. That guy gets on my nerves. He acts like he knows everything, even though he doesn't. And he says stupid things, like that he loves me.
I figured he was probably just looking for sex. I told him he could fuck me whenever he wanted. When I told him that, he held me close, and told me again that he loved me. He would love me in God's place, he said.
I hate him.
But whenever I hear that song being played on the church organ, the back of my eyes start to sting.
Amazing grace how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind but now I see.