Chapter 90: Don't Be Afraid, I'll Protect You

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Gu Yansheng stared at him while squinting his eyes a little. His look seemed as if he wasn’t awake yet.

“Please don’t leave me, okay? How come I can never see your face clearly? I have your necklace with me, you’ll come back right… you’ll come back…”

“I’m so tired, my eyes are barely staying open… can you tell me not to sleep as you did back then at that time…”

Wen Niannan looked up at the unconscious man and said flatly, “Let go… let go..?”

“Your voice is so pretty, can you talk with me for a bit longer?”

Wen Niannan looked at Gu Yansheng’s softness in astonishment. His heart felt bitter and tears started to fall down.

Suddenly, the person lifted his chin.

Gu Yansheng looked at Wen Niannan’s red eyes in confusion. He gently touched his face and asked with a smile, “Why aren’t you comforting me? Why is your head down?  ”

The irresistible smile on Gu Yansheng’s face caught Wen Niannan by surprise; the smile looked like Gu Yansheng in his youth.

Wen Niannan felt terrified by the sudden contact, but he didn’t dare to break away. His eyes couldn’t help but look at how kind Gu Yansheng was. His body was shivering.

Gu Yansheng held one of Wen Niannan’s hands while patting his head with the other, “You’re trembling? Don’t be afraid, let me protect you. I will protect you for the rest of my life, I won’t let others hurt you?”

“Don’t cry, be good, can you play the piano for me?”

Wen Niannan didn’t dare to look at Gu Yansheng’s eyes; he was afraid… afraid that he would believe the nonsense that Gu Yansheng was saying in his sleep, afraid that he would fall into the love hole like before and not be able to come out. He wanted to pull his hand free in a panic.

But his hand was held tightly and he couldn’t move, then he saw the two rings that had the exact same pattern on them and fell into a daze.

Gu Yansheng is drunk… he’s talking in his dreams… He won’t remember anything after he wakes up.

“Thank you for saving me… thank you…”

Listening to the drunk man saying thank you over and over again, Wen Niannan’s eyes flickered slightly. He remembered… he remembered who saved him.

Thank you… Shen… Luoan…

Wen Niannan’s body instantly froze as soon as he heard Shen Luoan’s name. It felt like someone swung a bat onto his head. His voice trembled, “What…what did you say?” ”

So… he is referring to Shen Luoan, he is dreaming about Shen Luoan the whole time…

“Let me look at you… why can’t I see your face clearly?”

Wen Niannan’s face became white as paper. He continued in his shaking voice, “Do you know who I am?”  ”

“Luo…an?”

“Who is the one who saved you? Tell me!  ”

“…Can’t see… can’t see your face… why can’t I ever see your face clearly…”

After saying a few more words, he gradually quieted down and soon fell back asleep. His grip also loosened.

“You don’t remember me… you thought of Shen Luoan as your savior just because you saw him when you woke up… but you took away my most cherished necklace…”

“I thought you loved him, he loved you so much, I watched you get in and out together, laughing with him, protecting him everywhere. How foolish of me to not bring the truth to you in hopes to not upset you.”

Wen Niannan stepped back and sat down against the closet. He suddenly felt like the world was extraordinarily quiet, and that there was a layer of fog in front of him, blocking his sight.

“Sir? Sir… are you okay?

Uncle Xu entered carrying a bowl of hangover soup. Seeing Wen Niannan looking blankly outside, he was a bit shocked.

Uncle Xu’s voice echoed in Wen Niannan’s ear. His eyes slowly lit up again. He looked at the man staring at him worriedly and looked at the hangover soup on the table.

Still a little lost, he asked, “Uncle Xu, why did you make the hangover soup?”

“What? Isn’t the master drunk and you told me to go make the soup?  ”

“Oh… It was me?”

“Sir what’s the matter? Please don’t scare me like that.”

Wen Niannan looked at the light on the ceiling and said lightly, “It’s okay, I’m just tired…”

“Can you give me the soup?”

Uncle Xu handed the soup to Wen Niannan and said with concern, “Sir, if you’re tired, please go rest. I can take care of Mr. Gu from here?”

“It’s okay, I’ll go back right after he finishes the soup?”

Uncle Xu helped Gu Yansheng up so that Wen Niannan can bring the soup to his mouth. But suddenly, just after a few spoonfuls, he suddenly raised his hand and accidentally spilled the soup. Some spilled on his shirt.

“Oh no, sir, are you okay?”

“I’m okay. His shirt is dirty, let’s get him changed.”

Translated by: UnderTheMoon

Edited by: Summit

When Gu Yansheng woke up, it was already noon the next day. The curtains were not drawn, and the room was all dark. Only a small lamp beside the bed was lit.

The man on the bed slowly sat up and leaned back. He frowned and touched his aching head and then pressed his temples.

Seeing the still lit lamp on the nightstand, he was taken aback. His eyes slightly widened, the day before he dreamed of the kidnapping, and then he seemed to hear Wen Niannan”s voice.

He got off the bed and walked to the window to open the curtains. The room lit up instantly, Gu Yansheng turned his head to avoid the dazzling sun, and suddenly, he saw the clothes he wore last night lying on the bed.

Looking down at the pajamas on him, he was surprised. He remembered going to Mr. Jiang’s project discussion yesterday,  getting drunk, and then hitting Qin Qibai. After that, he forgot everything.

Gu Yansheng glanced at the lamp beside the bed still on, his eyes darkened.

Suddenly, his head started to hurt violently, interrupting Gu Yansheng’s thoughts. The hangover from drinking yesterday was too strong, he was still a little dizzy.

Uncle Xu was currently wiping the stairs. After hearing the sound of a door closing upstairs, he saw Gu Yansheng coming down while rubbing his head.

“Sir, how are you feeling? Does your head still hurt?”

Gu Yansheng glanced around and frowned. He asked lightly, “What happened to my clothes? Were you the one taking care of me last night?”

“What? Um no, your husband and I helped you to the room, and then he took care of you.”

“It wasn’t you who changed my clothes?”

“It was your husband. Your clothes were changed because while he was feeding you soup, you accidentally hit the bowl and knocked it over?”

Hearing that it was Wen Niannan who took care of him, he was a little surprised, “He was the one who changed my clothes?”

“You… you were in a nightmare last night and he stayed until past midnight. He only went to rest after making sure your nightmare was over?”

Complex emotions flashed in Gu Yansheng’s eyes. He thought that it was Uncle Xu who was with him last night but didn’t expect it to be Wen Niannan. He definitely did not expect that he would stay by his side for so long.

But thinking back about what he saw that day at the door, the rage suddenly overwhelmed his doubt. He couldn’t forget what he saw yesterday.

“Where is Wen Niannan?”

“He went somewhere?”

Dr. Li smoothed the wrinkles out on his clothes and sat on the opposite side of the table. He looked at the person who was in a daze and asked, “Niannan, have you been taking your medicine recently?”

“Yes?”

“How are you feeling? You can tell me what’s in your mind.”

Dr. Li has already gradually noticed that Wen Niannan was a bit different, and he also sensed that it was probably because of that Mr. Gu.

“Niannan, don’t just stay quiet, I can only help you if you tell me what’s going on. How is your family doing? Has your relationship with your husband improved?”

Wen Niannan’s expression was a little unnatural. He said faintly, “What’s the point of improving it?”

“What?”

“It will only grow stiffer and stiffer, how is it possible to improve? My heart has already been shredded into pieces by him, I don’t know if it will continue to beat for him…”

“Dr. Li, do you think my life will be easier if I finally let go of this?”

Dr. Li looked at the person’s painful face and said carefully, “Niannan, do you… not love him anymore?”

“Love? Is that important? This pathetic love is suffocating me. Perhaps if I lose my mind one day, I wouldn’t be so stressed anymore. “

“How can you think this way?”

“Do you know? He had a nightmare last night and was saying Shen Luoan’s name. Saying Shen Luoan’s name while holding my hand and telling me not to leave. In his heart, Shen Luoan has already become his reliance when he’s afraid.”

“How do you think I felt when I heard him telling me not to leave? That softness I have never seen before, and will never receive in the future. That belongs to Shen Luoan.”

“I just want my father to be happy, I want my mother to not leave, and I want everyone who loves me to not be harmed by me. As long as they’re all well… I wish for nothing more…”

“Whether love or not, I have already let them all go… it’s already good enough.

But you… have you really let them all go?

Dr. Li looked at him with disbelief. His mouth was slightly opened, unable to believe that Wen Niannan would say such a thing.

He had known Wen Niannan since Wen Niannan was 17 years old. He watched the fragile and sensitive child slowly recover to normal, watched him being in ecstasy once he was engaged, and then watched his inferior love slowly disappear after marriage.

Now… that child who used to smile at everyone no longer had the light in his eyes, he has turned into another person.

When Wen Niannan walked out of the hospital, he was still in a daze. The sun was blocked above his head. He looked at the sunlight on the floor and stepped into the sun.

He looked at the medicine in his hand and didn’t notice a couple of people chatting and walking by. Suddenly, he was knocked down and sat on the floor, the bottle of medicine in his hand was also knocked out of his hand.

“Damn it, are you blind? Idiot!  ”

Wen Niannan looked at the people who had walked away already and stood up and patted his shirt. Then he picked up the medicine beside his feet.

Suddenly, he froze. He looked at the empty ring finger of his right hand and his face turned pale.

“The ring…”

Wen Niannan searched the ground frantically but had no results. Just as he was about to lose all hope, he noticed something shiny beside a rock not too far away.

Wen Niannan got closer and after making sure it was the ring, he sighed with relief. But after he picked it up, he noticed something that made panic return to his eyes.

The ring… broke…

There was now a crack in the middle of the originally smooth and pretty ring…

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Author’s Notes:

It’s so hard!! My thoughts are everywhere right now, I’m about to pull all my hair out! (My hair!!!)

Little Mr. Qin will be the turning point to the divorce. There might be a little cruelty, but you guys can take it, believe in yourself!

Qin Qibai: Wait, so I’m just used as a tool?

Nian Nian will glow, he will leave the shadows and go into the sunlight. WE belong to the light.

Thanks for reading! Love you all!