Chapter 99: It hurts to be alive...

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Wen Niannan didn’t know how long he had been asleep, but when he opened his eyes in the dark, all he could see was the gloomy basement.

He should be scared…but he couldn’t feel anything…

Wen Niannan moved slightly, trying to get up. There was a sharp pain in his body, but he couldn’t tell where it came from, or it, it was just everywhere.

The wound on the head was glued with the hair; the injury on the leg looked particularly severe; Wen Niannan lowered his head, touched his right leg, and moved it.

“I can still feel it…oh, it’s not broken yet…”

Wen Niannan sat up, leaned against the wall, raised his hand to cover his eyes, and said with a trembling voice, “Why don’t you let me die…it hurts to be alive…it hurts, my body, my heart… it’s really tiring…”

[Your mother wanted you to live a safe and happy life. She wanted you to live peacefully and healthily, she wanted you to live for yourself…]

What Mrs. Jiang said suddenly sounded in his mind. Wen Niannan’s eyes gradually recovered a bit of clarity, he slowly raised his head.

“…Mom…”

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry mom…I let you down…I’m sorry… I’m going to try hard…I will become what you wanted, I’m going to be happy…”

Wen Niannan laughed suddenly. The corners of his mouth raised, raising also the wound, but seemed to feel no pain at all. His eyes flashed slightly and said while sobbing, “I…I’m going to live…I’m going to live better than anyone else…I still have my father, it’s not like I don’t have anything left…”

Wen Niannan looked at the bright light through the seam of the door. A glimmering light of hope appeared in his eyes.

Several people suddenly started talking outside of the basement door. Wen Niannan quickly lowered his head.

“Wow, damn it, so all this for nothing?”

“What did Mr. Qin say? Did he tell you how much money he would give us? Even if Gu Yansheng didn’t give up the project, we still have to be paid for the hard work, right?”

Sun Qi cursed, “Damn, I called Qin Qibai yesterday. He denied everything and even scolded me. What can I do if Gu Yansheng didn’t care about his husband at all!”

Cursing one more time, Sun Qi turned on the light in the basement and entered. Seeing the man huddled in the corner, he reached out and wanted to kick him to vent some anger.

Wen Niannan curled up subconsciously, protecting his ears. But his action made Sun Qi stop for a moment.

“Why do I feel as if I’ve seen you before?”

The men behind him questioned, “What’s the matter, Brother Sun?”

“Nevermind.”

“Brother Sun, what are going to do with this guy? Gu Family don’t care about him, are we just going to leave him here”

“Keep him here for now. I refuse to believe that the Gu Family really doesn’t care about his life. I must make Gu Yansheng convinced this time!”

One of them behind him sat on the steps and asked, “Brother Sun, can you tell us how you caught Gu Yansheng last time?”

“Damn, I get angry when I think about it. That man I caught wasn’t Gu Yansheng at all, still had a hard-mouthed bone. He could keep his mouth shut when I beat him with a stick, but I didn’t expect him to scream in fright once he was locked in the basement. I threw a few rats in too, then I closed the door, shutting him for days and nights. I thought I’d starve him for a few days and then he’d definitely answer everything I ask.”

“Hahaha, Brother Sun, that’s so cruel.”

Sun Qi puffed the cigarette in his hand, smiling triumphantly, “I kept the bitch out for interrogation for a few days, who would have thought that that bitch would smash the bowl, and scratch my face with a piece of porcelain. That piece of shit, I kicked him until he stopped moving, then I threw him into the basement again.”

“Hahaha, listening to the terrifying screams he made in the basement, tsk tsk, when I think about it, it makes me happy, I should have done it… well…”

Peng…

With a muffled sound, Sun Qi fell to the ground.

The two behind him saw the scene with astonishment in their eyes. Raising his eyes inconceivably to look at Wen Niannan, who was full of tears behind Sun Qi.

Wen Niannan was panting and holding a stick in his hand, Drops of bloody tears were falling from the corners of his eye, and his hands trembled as he stared horribly at the ground.

“…shut up…shut up…shut up!”

Wen Niannan covered his ears with one hand. His eyes were red and dreadful as he roared, “Shut up! Shut up!”

Sun Qi shook his head and tried to stand up. He turned around and said with a face full of disbelief, “You…you dare to hit me? Weren’t you seriously injured? How did you get up?”

Wen Niannan suddenly smiled sorrowfully, put down his hand covering his ears, walking towards him with tumefactions.

Sun Qi pushed back with a frightened face, then turned his head, saying. “What are you guys standing there for? Do something!”

Both of them were terrified by Wen Niannan’s sudden action and didn’t manage to react immediately. One person took a wine bottle and tried to sneak attack from behind, but Wen Niannan avoided it, hitting him and making him fall to the ground.

“Ouch…”

Wen Niannan also fell to the ground because of the leg injury. But it was as if he couldn’t feel the pain, as he slowly stood up using the help of the stick in his hand.

He stepped forward, staring at the man lying on the ground with his face in pain. With the stick, he hit him in the leg.

“Ah! My leg!” The man rolled on the ground clutching his leg in pain.

“Does it hurt…Does it hurt?!”

Wen Niannan turned around, looking at the scared person hiding behind the door. But that person was so scared that he almost instantly opened the door, running away.

Looking back at Sun Qi, who was struggling to escape, Wen Niannan got closer slowly. He squatted down, staring straight at him.

“Does this scar look good?”

Wen Niannan suddenly wiped the blood from his face and lifted the hair covering his eyes. He revealed his full face and only covered his ear with one hand, and looked at Sun Qi expressionlessly.

When Sun Qi saw this face and actions, his eyes shook suddenly. He yelled, “It’s you! It’s yoU! How are you not dead?”

It turned out to be the man that he locked into the basement back then… he didn’t die…

“Yeah…I didn’t die… how come though?”

Wen Niannan, with a bitter face, suddenly kicked his abdomen with his uninjured leg. Sun Qi yelled out in pain.

“Have you ever thought how much it would hurt when you were hitting me?”

“I was lying on the ground like that, yelling over and over again and again. My whole body was hurting. Do you know what the sound of broken bones is like? Do you know how painful it is to move with multiple fractures in your body? Do you know!”

Wen Niannan whipped the tears from his eyes and pressed the stick against Sun Qi’s neck.

Sun Qi dodged his eyes, lowering his head: “I…I just do things for money…I just listen to the Qin Family! The Qin Family told me to do this, not me!”

Wen Niannan kicked Sun Qi one more time. Sun Qi’s face was covered with blood as he screamed.

Looking at the white suit with bloodstains on it, Wen Niannan stood up in a trance. Looking at the two people who had fallen to the ground and were crying, he suddenly regained his senses.

He slowly realized what he had done, he stepped back slowly and threw the stick away.

Wen Niannan slowly opened the basement door slowly with a trembling hand and rushed outside quickly.

When he finally saw the sun after he got out of the house, Wen Niannan closed his eyes, feeling the sunshine

Light… so warm… so comfortable…

It’s all over, it’s all over…

Wen Niannan walked along the road in a daze. It was a deserted area, and after walking for a long time, there still weren’t any signs of cars. So, he just dragged his injured leg, and slowly walked… slowly walked…

It was already night when Wen Niannan walked to Yifeng Street. It took him four full hours before arriving.

The security guard in the guard room was dozing off. Step by step, Wen Niannan walked to the villa.

After seeing the familiar villa in front of him, a relieved smile appeared on his face.

I’m back…

Knock knock

The door was opened. Uncle Xu was surprised so he pulled him towards him, but he avoided it. And as soon as Uncle Xu saw his clothes, a surprised expression appeared.

Wen Niannan stepped in, walking slowly to the living room. But what he saw was two men sitting at the dining table drinking red wine.

“It’s so lively, looks like I arrived at the wrong time.”

Gu Yansheng froze when he saw the blood on Wen Niannan’s clothes. He said with shock, “How…did you get so badly injured? You’re bleeding so much…”

When Gu Yansheng saw the blood on his face, he felt as if his chest was being strangled.  A hint of worry that he didn’t even realize appeared in his eyes.

Shen Luoan looked incredulously at Wen Niannan.

Wen Niannan approached with a tumefaction and said without expression, “Injured? Do you care? Is this the first injury I got because of you since our marriage?”

Gu Yansheng saw his strange walking posture, frowning, he looked at his leg: “What happened to your leg?”

Wen Niannan stared straight at him without answering. Seeing that expression of him in the same way he ignored him as always, Gu Yansheng suddenly grew angry.

“I asked you where the hell have you been these days? The family’s all worried sick!”

Thinking that maybe Wen Niannan had been in a car accident, Uncle Xu walked over with a worried expression on his face, asking: “Sir…sir, what happened? Why is the wound so serious? I’m calling an ambulance.”

Instead of replying to Uncle Xu, Wen Niannan turned to look at Gu Yansheng, and said, “Family? What family? My name is Wen, this is your family, not mine!”

“What do you mean?”

Wen Niannan pointed to Shen Luoan at the table and said lightly, “Why is he here?”

Gu Yansheng opened his mouth but he said nothing.

Upon seeing this, Shen Luoan immediately stepped forward, saying, “I won first place in the piano competition, that’s why Yansheng let me stay here to celebrate with me. Don’t blame him, I will go now…”

“Shut up! I asked Gu Yansheng! Is it your turn now to be here to speak for him so pretentiously? You know best where you got that first-place music from!”

Suddenly, Wen Niannan’s expression became terrifying, yelling at Shen Luoan as if he was like a different person.

Gu Yansheng looked at Wen Niannan in disbelief, as if he was looking at a stranger.

Wen Niannan felt ironic as he turned his head to look at Shen Luoan’s wronged face.

But he froze as soon as he saw the necklace in Shen Luoan’s hand.

“Why…is the necklace here in your hands?”