Chapter 84: Just Stab Me to Death with Your Spear

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“Ar-are you joking?” An ominous premonition sprang up in Lei Qing’s heart. With his back turned to Yu Shanshan, his face looked as bitter as a gourd. He really wanted to jump out and say, “Old man, if you think I, Lei Qing, am miserable, just comforting me with a few words is loyal enough, then we’ll go our separate ways and find our own moms.” However, he also knew that if he said that, that bright silver spear would immediately stab over.

Seeing Lei Qing’s back trembling violently and constantly, Yu Shanshan thought he was excited like this because he heard her words. Encouraged, she couldn’t help but blush, lower her head, bite her lip, and say softly, “Y-you, the things you did before, I-I can forgive you.”

“Th-thank you, Miss Yu, for your great kindness.” Lei Qing’s body continued to tremble, his voice bitter. “But I really can’t forgive myself. I insulted your purity and made everyone in the Imperial Capital point fingers at you. For such a monstrous sin of blaspheming a Goddess, I won’t forgive myself for the rest of my life. Shanshan, you go. Don’t let my heart ache in pain anymore.” In his heart, he was also secretly shouting, I beg you, please leave quickly. The longer this drags on, the easier it will be to expose the truth. Especially since An Feifei is sneaking over from behind; she isn’t as simple as you, Eldest Miss.

“No, as long as you come back with me, everything, everything can be solved.” Yu Shanshan said in a low voice, her face red and ears hot. “Al-although this matter made me very angry. Bu-but since it has already happened, I-I have no choice. You come back with me, visit my father, and propose to him in person. I-I think my father will definitely forgive you.”

Boom~

It was like a Heavenly Thunder smashing alive onto Lei Qing’s head, blasting him until his heart and gall were split apart, swaying unsteadily. Th-this joke, it’s gone too far, right?

Go apologize and propose to Yu Tianji? Grand Auntie, do you think your father, that Grand Preceptor of the Cabinet who started from scratch and possesses overwhelming power , is as simple as you? That easy to coax? I estimate that after just two sentences, that Yu Tianji with his burning gaze would, in a fit of rage, slap this ill-intentioned prospective son-in-law to death. Lei Qing dared to guarantee that every little thing he had done since childhood, even things as small as a fart, were already laid out on Yu Tianji’s desk. Facing someone like himself, even if you beat Yu Tianji to death, he wouldn’t marry his daughter to him.

Moreover, to take ten thousand steps back, even if Yu Tianji considered his daughter’s reputation and really agreed to let me marry Yu Shanshan? Th-that would be even more impossible. I am still young, just starting to taste some success, great things are not yet accomplished, and over a hundred brothers are waiting to be fed. You want me to go back and marry you? From then on, be the son-in-law of that Yu Tianji who likes to be serious and acts like an old fogy? From now on, honestly be a person and steadily be a small official in the Imperial Capital climbing up slowly?

As for things like the glitzy life, laughing proudly at the world, and touring with beauties, they would have nothing to do with me from now on. I’m only twenty-one. How could I live that kind of dead, stagnant life?

Before, Lei Qing didn’t feel this way, but since he was forced out to make a living, he had gradually grown to like this kind of life—unrestrained, free, exciting, thrilling, able to enjoy himself to the fullest, eating big chunks of meat, drinking big mouthfuls of wine, and howling in the mountains and forests.

Let alone being the son-in-law of Yu Tianji who can’t take half a step out of line, even if it were being the Princess’s Consort, Lei Qing had absolutely no interest.

The world is so big; there is too much beautiful scenery I haven’t seen enough of, too many beauties I haven’t encountered, too many great things I haven’t done enough of, too many ideals I haven’t realized, and too many pretty widows I haven’t comforted.

Jo-joking, stay with Yu Shanshan until old age?

That would really be less painful than just stabbing him to death with a spear.

Seeing Lei Qing’s back becoming more and more agitated, but he still didn’t make a sound, Yu Shanshan thought he was both agitated and worried. So she softened her voice and comforted him crisply, “Don’t worry. I-I will forgive you too. As long as you are willing to change in the future, I-I will, will treat you well.” She was shy, biting her lips, her heart uneasy. She probably had already started fantasizing about the wedding and the things after that.

“No, I sincerely don’t want your forgiveness. I beg you, Yu Shanshan, Grand Auntie, please do not forgive me.” Lei Qing shouted in his heart repeatedly, groaning endlessly. He secretly cursed that his acting just now was a bit too much. Heavens, getting married? That is something I wouldn’t dare to even think about.

What if he told her? Lei Qing’s heart thumped. Joking, that would purely be seeking death. He had already seen that Yu Shanshan’s strength should exceed his by a large margin, though he couldn’t tell by how much.

To cover up one lie, one needs a heap of lies to cover it up. At this moment, Lei Qing deeply understood this truth. He didn’t dare to turn his head back, afraid she would see through the flaws and without a word, stab him with a spear.

“Shanshan, thank you for your soft heart.” Lei Qing coughed twice, then lay on the horse’s back and sighed bitterly, “Perhaps, you don’t know what kind of person I am. I love making friends with scoundrels, love visiting brothels, drinking flower wine, cockfighting, walking dogs, causing trouble, fighting, and flirting with girls. I-I also like climbing widows’ walls. So-someone as miserable and lowly as me, a pile of mud that can’t stick to the wall. How could I be worthy of someone as pure and fairy-like as you? You, don’t say such things out of sympathy for me. This will only hurt my self-esteem and make me more painful. Shanshan, you go. Don’t mind me. Let a piece of trash like me, whom Grandma doesn’t love and my uncle doesn’t care for, rot on my own. I’m not worth you…”

“You don’t need to say anymore.” Yu Shanshan’s face became paler the more she listened. In the end, she couldn’t help but interrupt him. Biting her lip, her eyes looked somewhat determined as she said, “Lei Qing, I know all the bad things you did before. Al-although those things made, made me unable to bear it. But, thank you also for being so frank with me. There is a saying that goes, a prodigal who returns is more precious than gold. Although you were so unbearable before, it was because you made some bad friends you shouldn’t have made.”

The bad premonition in Lei Qing’s heart grew stronger and stronger, he was about to cry. Damn it, I even said the thing about climbing widows’ walls. You, you actually still…

“The most important thing is that I saw your sincerity. Because you know you were wrong, you know you are not good.” When Yu Shanshan said this, she actually seemed a bit relieved. “People are valuable in knowing themselves, and also valuable in being able to self-reflect. You can recognize your mistakes, I am really gratified. Some of my previous worries have now disappeared.”

He was stunned, Lei Qing was completely stunned. How did he sink deeper and deeper? He couldn’t help but pull a long face and said tremblingly, “Shanshan, I-I have seduced other people’s widows? You, you don’t mind even this?”

“I-I mind.” Yu Shanshan forcefully endured the impulse to stab him to death with one shot and end it all. But after taking a few deep breaths, her complexion gradually improved a bit. “But what I mind more is the future you. Although the things you did are very bad and make me disgusted. But I deeply believe that as long as you realize you are wrong and are willing to change, it is still forgivable. Besides, even if I don’t forgive you, so what? You, you have already…” At the end, her cheeks became slightly shy and flushed.

“Bu-but I can’t forgive myself! I can’t defile you. My dirty past isn’t worthy of you! I am despicable, I am shameless, I am obscene, I am le…” Lei Qing desperately belittled himself, hoping to make Yu Shanshan feel disgusted and leave on her horse.

“Enough, Lei Qing.” Yu Shanshan interrupted him with some annoyance, just as a glimmer of hope rose in Lei Qing’s heart. But then her tone changed again, “Lei Qing, I know that because of remorse, you blame yourself very much and look down on yourself. However, as a man, I hope you can be strong and look forward. Instead of always being entangled in some of your past wrong deeds. Don’t worry, after we get married, I will treat you well. I will also help you well. I will first send all those bad scoundrel friends of yours to the healthiest troops to be tempered, so they can’t lead you astray.”

Heavens, my life is ruined. Brothers in the Imperial Capital who are scoundrels, Lei Qing is sorry for you!

“As for you liking to go to brothels to drink flower wine, it’s fine too. I can wear men’s clothes to accompany you.” Yu Shanshan’s eyes seemed a bit blurry as she said, “As for other bad habits, don’t worry, I will help you change them one by one, so that in the future, you will be an upright man with your head held high.”

Just stab me to death with your spear!

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