Prologue: I Just Can’t

[No, this isn’t right. This isn’t it. I can’t make this work anymore.

It’s impossible. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t. I physically cannot.

Am I a liar? No. I didn’t lie. I’m one hundred percent sure I didn’t. I absolutely did not lie to them.

But there’s a massive gulf between my ideal and reality.

Maybe I just like who I am when I’m in love with him—maybe that’s the only reason I—

I can’t do this anymore. I can’t make it work.

I can’t even be normal.]