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If Liam could avoid Zayn he would. it was awkward to say the least. Liam doesn't try getting out of his room anymore, and Zayn starts locking the doors again.

Both of them don't need another accident much like the recent one that was now actually a week ago. And Zayn just felt so stupid because wow he really tried to rape him. What the hell was he thinking. And then he thinks oh right, he wasn't.

He's not even sure when the sexual tension started or how for that matter. Really he just wants to grab a remote control, press rewind, and make sure that mistake doesn't happen.

And Liam. Poor Liam. Zayn could even begin to think how he must've felt. With everything he was going through, Zayn was sure he didn't need or want rape added to that list. He just felt so horrible. But he can't undo it because that's life and Zayn was just silently cursing it as life moved on cursing it's next victim. 

Liam couldn't even comprehend his feeling. He was liking it at first. He was all in for it. Then the belt buckle popped and he was snapped back into reality almost. He didn't want to go all the way with Zayn. heck he didn't want to go all the way with a guy. Any guy for that matter.

But all this commotion has started to make him feel something different. Feel something he isn't used to. And he's really not sure if he wants to embrace it or not. He chooses not to because right now, that seems like the easiest thing to do.

And he's not even really sure what this feeling is. He just knows it's different. He doesn't like it. No not one bit. He doesn't want to welcome it in. He wants to keep it outside for as long as he can. He's not willing to have change in his life, and he knows that's a really close-minded thing to do but this, this is different. and it should not be happening to him. none of this should.

Then all of a sudden, Zayn's unlocking his door and coming into the room. He looks really uncomfortable and almost sweaty. He's very nervous as far as Liam could see and it looks like it took all of his will to open that door and step inside. And maybe even like he's been contemplating if he should and even stood outside the door for a bit before deciding on it.

"Hey.." He's rocking back on his heels, first starting to look at Liam but then looking all around the room to avoid his stare. Both of them are clearly uncomfortable, but Liam just wants Zayn to finish what he wants to say because he thinks he really needs to work out everything in his mind. He's confused and he doesn't like the feeling. He needs to get rid of it. And in order to do that, he needs to get rid of Zayn.

There's silence when Zayn is clearly waiting for Liam to say something. He wants to force him to say something. Anything. He wants to force him to know when he should be talking, when he should respond to his master. And then Zayn cringes because did he really just say he was Liam's master. In what way did he think he owned him? He has to admit, it'd be nice for Liam to be his, but willingly is what he's looking for. So when he knows Liam isn't going to say anything, he proceeds.

 "Um, Basically I wanted to say..sorry" And Liam still doesn't respond to him. He stopped his staring so now he's just staring down at his folded hands showing no signs of ever talking back. But Zayn just can't take it anymore. And he likes to think he's not responsible for any of his reactions.

He's making those long strides again that immediately makes Liam look up in fear of what Zayn's planning on doing next. But Zayn isn't planning on doing anything. In fact he has no idea of what he's doing anymore. He's only aware of how angry he is right at this very moment.

Then Zayn gripping Liam's shirt in his hands and yanking him forward. "Why the fuck aren't you saying anything?!" He's yelling and Liam can only shrug at that, because there's just some things that you really just don't know.

"What do you mean you don't know? When I'm talking to you, I expect you to answer. Do you understand?!" Liam nods, feeling oddly like he's back at home with his parents, he's five, and he's just done something bad. But nodding isn't enough for Zayn. He only gets angrier because he just explained the rules to Liam and still he doesn't seem to understand what he's getting at. Does he not get that he's supposed to respond to everything unless Zayn says so? 

So he slaps him. For the second time. Hard. And it works, because Liam takes that as a warning to speak. "Y-yes, I understand" Then Zayn's satisfied. Satisfied that he's gotten Liam to speak today. And he feels something different. Pride he thinks it is. He loves it.

He let's go of Liam's shirt, which is now wrinkled, and instead pulls his face closer. He's snapped out of his trance so he feels bad. He's inching his lips closer to Liam's but when he's so close he can feel Liam's breath, he pulls away. Instead he pecks Liam's forehead, so soft that Liam can barely feel it. Then he's gone. Leaving Liam more confused then he was earlier.

He needs to fix it. And bad, because his hatred for the feeling is getting worse. So he starts off with a question he knows has crossed his mind more times than he can ever really count. A question he doesn't want to think about, but one he needs to get out of his system before he goes insane trying to figure it out.

Does he like Zayn?