19.10.2025

It's been months since I've seen you

but nothing has changed at all – you're

still too beautiful, shining with something

I will never be able to capture in words,

and I'm still torn between wanting to fall

to my knees in desperate worship and trying

to dig you out of my veins with a knife, to

make this pain last just a little longer

I want to turn this into something kinder,

for both our sakes – none of this is your fault,

after all, and I promise I am sorry that things

turned out this way; I never meant to cause

this much grief, not you, never you. So maybe,

for once, I can try to set things right, and then

some day perhaps we'll both be better off