Volume 4, Chapter 17 – I Also Hate You Very Much

Tianyin could feel her stomach churning.

As someone who considered her own values to be more or less normal… after Seles said that she had actually spent an entire week eating food made from unripe Elven Fruits…

She instinctively felt a wave of nausea.

“How… how could this happen…”

The little girl, her long silver hair spread out and pressed beneath her, her hands and feet shackled in chains, wore a face that should have been lit with a charming smile yet now twisted with unbearable pain.

“I… I ate… Elven Fruits… those, those fruits that can hatch Elves… fruits like that?”

But reality was that cruel. No matter how Tianyin questioned herself, no matter how she argued back in her heart, Seles, who was staring fixedly at Tianyin, gently helped her answer that question in an unusually soft voice.

“Yes, Xiaoyin, you ate those fruits. To put it bluntly, those fruits are actually our Dark Elves’ still immature embryos~ So, how is it, I originally wanted to keep letting Xiaoyin eat them… then slowly make Xiaoyin stay here very obediently, stay here… but Xiaoyin, you were not well behaved at all. You clearly ate so many fruits, yet still were not affected… you really gave me quite the surprise…”

Her words were spoken in a gentle tone, but to Tianyin they sounded like whispers echoing up from the depths of hell.

“No… no… it is not like that, it is not like that, I didn’t eat that sort of thing… no, no… how could I possibly eat that kind of food… what I ate… what I ate was dessert, right?”

Her pupils began to lose focus and drift, and Tianyin’s voice also turned broken and halting.

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In her mind, Samael was also anxiously calling out to Tianyin, yet right now Tianyin seemed unable to hear Samael’s voice at all and only kept muttering to herself.

That was understandable… Before this Tianyin would silently cry just from tripping on flat ground and losing half her HP, and now she had learned that she had been eating Elven Fruits for an entire week… something like that really was even harder to endure than a fall.

More accurately…

At this moment, under the stimulus of Seles’ words, Tianyin was slowly walking toward collapse…

“That’s exactly the expression… Xiaoyin, that broken look, that expression that seems so very, very full of despair… this is exactly it…”

Seeing the nearly despairing expression on Tianyin’s face, Seles showed an obsessed, almost pathological smile.

She gently stroked Tianyin’s small face once again, then in the girl’s dull, lifeless eyes, lowered her head.

Her thin lips pressed against the girl’s soft little mouth, and with Tianyin still offering no resistance at all, Seles very easily pried open Tianyin’s teeth.

The Elf girl, beautiful like a poppy flower, kissed the dazed girl beneath her in fascination, and in this room where there was no one besides the two of them, only the sound of kissing quietly echoed.

A long time passed.

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At last Seles lifted her head, her face flushed, and as a long strand of silver thread stretched between them, her eyes grew especially hazy.

“Thank you for the treat…”

The Elf girl smiled and spoke in a thoroughly satisfied tone.

However… as the one who had gone through it, Tianyin’s pupils still had no focus at all.

Looking at Tianyin, who now seemed like a toy that had been played with until it broke, Seles did not feel even the slightest reluctance or pity. On the contrary, seeing Tianyin like this filled her heart with a strange sense of satisfaction.

“This is just right, Xiaoyin. From now on, keep entertaining me like this, alright? Like this, we can stay together forever and ever, living together like this for the rest of our lives, would that not be good?”

Murmuring such obsessed words, Seles climbed fully onto the bed that held Tianyin prisoner.

Looking at the girl within arm’s reach, Seles, who had just found satisfaction from the kiss, felt that restless desire in her heart stir once more.

“Xiaoyin… do you know… that I don’t only like you, I also hate you very, very much…”

The girl’s body leaned closer to Tianyin, then as if handling some precious and fragile treasure, she carefully gathered Tianyin into her arms.

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“Really… back then I yearned so much for warmth, longed for the light, and dreamed that one day a gentle person would come and save me.”

“But this world told me that the more you long for things that are out of reach, the more those things will tear you to pieces… so I abandoned that dream.”

At this moment Seles seemed to want to confide her heart to Tianyin again.

After pulling Tianyin tightly into her embrace, the Elf girl seemed to sink into memories.

“The fate of Dark Elves is predetermined. In the past I never believed anything like that… I even naively thought that things like fate… were something I could decide myself.”

“But could someone like me really decide her own fate? I only wished to have a good life, I clearly did not want to spend every day living in a dark underground world full of schemes.”

“Yet fate is just like that… At that time, no matter how cruel life was, no matter how much I was hurt, all I wanted was to see even a single ray of sunlight… but in the end I never did.”

The Elf girl spoke of her life.

Yet Tianyin, who was being held tightly in the Elf girl’s arms, still stared blankly.

“Despair… despair has run through my whole life, but just when I had decided to go on living like that, I saw you… Xiaoyin, do you know? In my eyes, you right now are no different from how I used to be.”

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“So foolish there is no cure, so naive you are willing to trust anyone. You have no idea that while others smile at you, behind your back they are thinking about how to trap you, thinking about how to push you into a dead end…”

“But someone who is just like I used to be has not been hurt by the world at all… I really, really, really also hate you so much, Xiaoyin.”

“I like the way you are, and I also hate the way you are… yes, Xiaoyin, what you said just now was right. I don’t only like you, I also deeply loathe that naive look of yours…”

“So break… break just like me… Xiaoyin, would it not be fine if you broke just like I did? Let us despair toward this world together… then in that despair, the two of us can stay like this, holding each other and living on by sharing each other’s warmth…”

As she spoke to this point, the Elf girl’s gaze grew even brighter.

However, just as Seles was drawing the picture of a future that belonged to her and Tianyin…

The eyes of Tianyin in her arms unknowingly turned an intense blood red.

“Allow me to refuse that, because right now, I also… hate you very, very much!”