Chapter 12.3

“Xiaoyi, come with me.”

Xiao Bi called Chu Xiaoyi, then bumped into Chu Jiadong’s gaze again, and said lightly, “You stay here honestly.”

Chu Xiaoxiao and Chu Jiadong stayed in the living room, while Chu Xiaoyi followed his mother Xiao Bi to the study room. Xiao Bi motioned to his eldest son to close the study door, and then calmly said, “Tell me, why was it noisy just now?””

Chu Xiaoyi heard the familiar opening remarks, and his memories instantly jumped to his childhood days. Every time he had a dispute with his father, his mother would always listen to him alone, wanting to know what he thought.

Xiao Bi sometimes patiently persuaded Chu Jiadong, and sometimes confronted each other fiercely. Their contradictions and disputes always revolved around him.

Chu Xiaoyi remembers that once, after he was beaten, his mother, who had always been gentle, yelled sharply at his father, “Chu Jiadong, what’s wrong with you?”

She was flushed with anger at that time, as if she wanted to tear Chu Jiadong to pieces. Since then, Chu Jiadong has never beaten Chu Xiaoyi.

Chu Xiaoyi lowered his eyes and said, “It’s nothing…”

Chu Xiaoyi has always been weak in the face of his mother. In fact, she has never done anything wrong. More often, she was caught between father and him, and she had to get involved in disputes as a last resort.

There was no contradiction between Xiao Bi and Chu Jiadong when they lived alone, and there was also no contradiction between Xiao Bi and him, but when combined, the three of them were constantly at war.

Xiao Bi said slowly, “I can guess what you are arguing about. If it’s the matter of volunteering for the college entrance examination, you said when you left home that as long as we don’t care about you anymore, all old accounts will be settled. I can’t control your dad’s mentality of making up for it, but I did what you wanted.”

When Chu Xiaoyi left home, he couldn’t wait to escape from the family cage and longed for an independent life.Xiao Bi finally agreed and gave his eldest son a deposit, which was his New Year’s money for many years.

“I asked if you would like to repeat the exam. Yet, you also rejected me at that time. I really don’t know…what else can I do for you?”

Chu Xiaoyi lowered his head in shame and listened to his mother without saying a word.He did say that he wouldn’t be entangled in the past, and regarded the moment he left home as a brand new beginning. It was really boring to turn over the old debts now.

“If it’s about Xiaoxiao, we didn’t discuss it with you in advance. I’m really sorry.”

Xiao Bi explained, “I had a physical problem a few years ago, so I went to the hospital for ring removal surgery, but I didn’t expect to have Xiaoxiao unexpectedly.””

Chu Xiaoyi looked at his mother in a daze. He didn’t even know that she had undergone surgery, and he became more and more ashamed in his heart.He has always deliberately avoided news from home, and even ignored his mother’s physical condition.

Xiao Bi actually had no plans to have a second child. After she gave birth to Chu Xiaoyi, the doctor hinted that she might no longer have children. However, family planning was still observed at that time, so Xiao Bi had no regrets, only that it was fate. The arrival of her little daughter may also be fate. No one expected it to happen, yet Chu Xiaoxiao was born healthy.

“At that time, you cut off your contact in the show, and we couldn’t contact you. There was really no other way for us. Your dad didn’t want Xiaoxiao at first. He has completely lost his confidence in being a father. He always feels that he is unable to do a good job…”

Xiao Bi paused for a few seconds and confessed, “I decided to give birth to Xiaoxiao.At that time, I want to save your dad. I also want to save myself. I’m really sorry.”

Two years before, when Chu Xiaoyi left home, the family also had a bad time, full of lifelessness. Chu Jiadong’s self-confidence was destroyed overnight, and he fell into never-ending self-blame and guilt. He didn’t even have a chance to atone for his sins. Xiao Bi was calm on the surface, but in fact she was also on the verge of collapse, and she didn’t know where to go.

Chu Xiaoyi left the house mercilessly, but Xiao Bi and Chu Jiadong were still trapped in the shadow of the past and had not come out for a long time. Xiao Bi really couldn’t stand their predicament that time, so she decided to accept the unexpected Chu Xiaoxiao. If there was no turnaround, she may not have been able to hold on any longer.

A trace of sadness surged into Chu Xiaoyi’s heart, and he said bitterly. “Mom, you don’t have to be sorry, I’m sorry for you…”

Chu Xiaoyi was ashamed in front of his mother. How could he be qualified to accuse Xiao Bi? She had already done everything a mother could do.

When Chu Jiadong was out earning money, Xiao Bi not only had to teach in school, but also went home to do housework and take care of the young Chu Xiaoyi. Despite Chu Jiadong’s objections, she listened to her eldest son’s thoughts and sent him to a music interest class.She never criticized Chu Xiaoyi’s academic performance, only told him to be clear about his future choices, and even helped him persuade Chu Jiadong.

What else can Chu Xiaoyi ask her? Ask her to divorce his father?

Chu Xiaoyi was convinced that if he wasn’t born, maybe his parents wouldn’t quarrel so tirelessly.

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