Chapter 36.3

“I don’t want to have another child. Being a father is too tiring. As for marriage, I don’t have the confidence that a stranger who isn’t related to you by blood will treat you like your biological mother. I also don’t have the confidence to be a good father and a good husband at the same time.”

Luo Shuyan never expected for her father to have no intention of getting married!

“The women can choose other men as their husbands, plus, I don’t have the intention to spend my life with anyone.”

He could choose not to be someone’s husband, but he couldn’t chose whether to be Shuyan’s father.

Shuyan was his daughter from birth, and he had to be responsible for her and protect her for the rest of her life.

“Dad isn’t choosing not to get married only because of you, but also because I don’t have the confidence to be a good husband. Instead of messing up my marriage, it would be better to not to choose marriage from the beginning.”

He made sense and there was no way to refute his point of view.

Luo Shuyan suddenly remembered that in the book from her dreams, the male protagonist “Luo Tianyuan” was also unmarried all his life.

She had no capacity to feel upset over what others had said, her head was full of question marks.

She always felt that what her father said was right, but there still, something didn’t sit right with her.

After thinking about it, it was probably because everyone had different opinions, and they may not agree with each other on this kind of matter for the rest of their lives, but Shen Yan… Maybe he can understand Dad’s thoughts?

Since she can’t understand it, and she wouldn’t be able to change it, then… Should she leave it at just that?

Luo Shuyan was dizzy and her eyes were out of focus. The image of the marriage of the male protagonist in her dreams appeared in her mind. She only had one thought – who am I, where am I, and what am I going to do?

Immediately afterwards, Luo Tianyuan threw out another message, “Your Aunty Song and I…” We are actually not together.

However, he suddenly realized, if he said that they were not together, would he be misleading his daughter?

Will he teach his daughter that ordinary friends should get along like how he and Song Wanqing did?

The relationship between adults was too complicated. There are more than two kinds of relationships between two adults, commonly known as situationships.

Luo Tianyuan changed his words, “I have already broken up with Aunty Song. Her family has a reason to say such things, because they don’t want me to be with her. It’s a bit difficult to explain to you entirely. I don’t think you’ll understand. So, when you are older, if you are still interested in this matter, Dad will tell you, okay?”

Luo Shuyan, “…Okay.”

She suddenly discovered that she was really still a baby.

She didn’t understand what her Dad was saying.

In the evening, Shen Yan was still very worried about Luo Shuyan. He wanted to go next door to ask how much of the matter had been resolved, and Uncle Luo’s answers. However, when he walked to the door, he turned back. What if the father and daughter were talking about something important, wouldn’t he be interrupting them?

He hesitated, hesitated, and hesitated… until nine o’clock in the evening, when it was time for him to go to bed. In the end, he did not knock on the door next door.

Shen Yan felt anxious, he sat on his bed and had difficulty falling asleep. His thoughts were jumping back and forth between the thoughts of “ask her” and “what if she is asleep”. Finally, he couldn’t take it anymore. He picked up his pencil case and used it to knock on the wall.

For a moment, no one answered.

Twice, still ignored.

Was she really asleep?

He kept on knocking.

Luo Shuyan, who was separated from him by a wall, almost turned into an irascible little girl.

She had just started feeling drowsy, and her eyelids were getting droopier. Suddenly, she heard a knock, she thought that she had heard wrong. She turned over and prepared to continue sleeping, but she didn’t expect the person on the other side to be like a woodpecker. The person kept knocking —- pecking non-stop!

She sat up abruptly, and remembered what happened today, and the roasted sweet potato. No matter how much annoyance she felt waking up, it was all gone by now. She unknowingly picked up the pencil case, and knocked feebly against the wall.

Today, she’d originally wanted to go over and talk to Shen Yan, but she didn’t expect for her father to talk so late into the night. She thought that he would be asleep, so she didn’t go over to find him.

——Luo Shuyan, Luo Shuyan, are you okay?

——What’s up?

——Are you asleep?

——Hello?

…

——I’m here.

——I’m fine.

——Go to sleep, don’t worry about me.

——You too!

The communication between the two is limited to this, and other deeper topics cannot be communicated with a pencil case.

Shen Yan didn’t know what Luo Shuyan and Luo Tianyuan had talked about. He could merely decipher if Luo Shuyan was still alive and asleep, and he didn’t know anything else.

On this winter night, Shen Yan fell into deep thought.

Should he study a set of codes so that he can use codes to communicate with Luo Shuyan from the other side of the wall?

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